August 31st - Picking up Someone Else's Feelings

Over the last couple of days, I found myself feeling more and more depressed - a really heavy feeling was settling over me. By noon yesterday, it was really horrible. I couldn't figure out what was wrong and my thoughts were thoughts I hadn't had in such a long time.

I finally lay down to ask for some help in sorting things out. I asked why I was feeling this way and like the therapists that all Spirit Guides tend to be, they asked me "why do you think"? I had trouble sorting out an answer. It finally clicked that these may not even be my feelings that I am having. As an empath and clairsentient (someone who easily picks up feelings and emotions from others) I know I can take on other people's feelings.

I immediately started to repeat to myself, "If these are not my feelings, take them away." I repeated this over and over again for a few minutes and I noticed the feelings started to lift. Within about 1/2 hour, I was functioning again.

I could now do my readings with having that very negative attitude hanging over me. Now all I have to do is figure out who I was picking those feelings up from but I'm guessing it was from my gentleman friend who visited me a few days ago. If that is what he is going through...poor soul!

August 30th - It's Not My Responsibility

My Spirit Guides are constantly telling me that my mother and father and what they are going through is not my responsibility. Everytime I think about doing something to help them out, they are reminding me of this. Do I listen? Nope. I still get involved but that doesn't mean that my Guides aren't going to drive their point home.

I kept telling my father about the Meals on Wheels service that could provide a hot meal for both him and my mother and he kept telling me "it was on the list". Well, I finally got so tired of him not taking action (which is quite normal for him) that I called and arranged 2 meals to be delivered yesterday.

They sent the wrong meal for my father. They told me he was going to get Pork Loin in Gravy which I knew he would eat and instead he received Vegetable Curry. It was bad enough it was a vegetarian dish but he hates spices...My mother got the same meal - not too sure if she actually likes Indian food - she does like spicy though.  The problem with her meal was that the rice looked like it was burnt in that the bottom was all stuck together.

Not a good first impression from Meals on Wheels but perhaps it had more to do with me trying to do things that I shouldn't be doing...When things are meant to be, they flow with ease. When you hit into problems, it's time to review things. It doesn't mean they shouldn't get Meals on Wheels but perhaps I had better take a step back once this is cleared up...

August 29th - Another Event Takes Place

I often ask the Guides for info relating to relationships and life in general.

For example, there is a gentleman friend who comes into my life for a visit every so often and after he leaves I usually ask if he is going to show up again at my door. The last time I heard from him was about a year ago.

I could not imagine him contacting me again but every time I asked if he would, I was told an absolute yes. Yesterday morning, he contacted me again and dropped by for a visit.

I like when something like that happens because it reinforces my faith. I never know when the event will happen, only that it will and then I just get on with my life and trust that when it is time, it is time.

I have been told so many things about my life and what will happen that when each event manifests, it helps me to believe that all of the other things (that sound so wonderful - too wonderful to believe) will manifest as well. It is something that keeps me going - a form of hope that gets me through any difficult days. It is truly a great benefit of communicating with those in Spirit.

August 28th - Learning to Go With the Flow

Now this is something you will hear me comment on quite a bit - learning to go with the flow. As a "workaholic", this can be quite challenging. I was used to forcing myself to work and work and work. Getting out of that habit was a very long road and occasionally I find myself falling back into old habits.

For example, my goal was to complete 2 of the Gift from your Guides readings each day until they were all done. Yesterday was a day of sheer exhaustion for some reason. I just couldn't seem to get it together. I ran around and did an errand or two, I did some work on the site, I did absolutely nothing and I tried to do the readings. However, when I sat down to do the readings, it was like pulling teeth to get any information. That should have been my first clue.

Doing readings takes energy. It is tiring and it can be very draining. It is not as easy as others seem to believe. I rested up for a while and then went back to them. I was able to do one of the readings. I tried to get the second reading but again, my mind was going blank.

Finally, I heard one of my Guides say, "Wait until tomorrow". I figured that they may have a point so regardless of my intentions or my schedule I went to sleep. When I got up in the morning, I sat down to see if I could get info on the first reading and the images came up immediately. You think I would have learned by now but I guess I am just a slow learner...

August 27th - Laughter - Take it where you can get it!

As I have learned to relax and show self-love, I've noticed that my sense of humour and my ability to see humour in my life has increased. Whenever something goes wrong at home such as spilling food on the floor, having stuff fall out all over the floor from the fridge because I stuff it to over-capacity, having my tomato plants (in planters) fall over in the wind several times a day so I have to fix them, having my cat walk on my keyboard while I am trying to type so I get lines of spaces and ============= (as she just did), having my cat slap me in the face to wake up (almost daily) and a million other things that would have pissed me off before...I now laugh. I appreciate the humour in life - I have had enough suffering and negative thinking to last me several lifetimes.

Another prime example...my sister emailed and asked if I felt the earthquake? What earthquake? Apparently, yesterday we had an earthquake that was felt out to New Brunswick. I don't remember any earthquake and then I thought about it more. Ah yes, there was a point yesterday where I was working quite intently and my hands and body started shaking. I really noticed it because my head was nodding up and down. Now, my first thought was "Good God, I hope I don't have my father's hereditary disease where you shake" and then I just forgot about it since it stopped after about 20 seconds or so. When my sister told me it was an earthquake, I laughed about it on and off for the rest of the day (and I'm still smiling about it). I told my sister that I must be spending too much time at my mom and dad's place if my first thought is that I was picking up an illness! The point being...take a situation and find the humour in it. Remind yourself of it throughout the day and let the positive feeling fill your soul. It will do wonders for you and decrease your stress.

August 26th - An Example of Self-Love

One of the big lessons that I (like so many of you) have been learning over the years is self-love. Yesterday was a bit of a test for me and it really showed me how far I have come. I was to travel into Toronto to have a meeting with my father and my mother's case worker (my mother has Alzheimers) and the nurse (who thought it might be easier to change the dressings on my mother if I was there) and I intended to leave extremely early to avoid rush hour.

When I woke up, I discovered that I hurt a muscle in my back - not enough to debilitate me, but it did hurt a bit to walk and move in certain ways. The old me would have suffered through the pain and driven the hour out to my parent's place to be at the meeting - suffering in silence.

When I was in the midst of learning this lesson, I would have spent at least an hour arguing with myself on whether to go or not. I've come a long way baby! In just a few minutes I decided that I wasn't going to suffer and did not go. Instead, I arranged to be on a speaker phone to hear and contribute to the meeting and the nurse would have to do without me.

Making a decision such as that - putting my own needs first - is a sign of self-love. So all of you who are working on that issue (and I know there are many of you out there that I communicate with frequently) and are questioning on how to show yourself love - this is but one example.

August 25th - Too Cool - Seeing pieces fit into place!

A couple of months ago I got a "I remember you" notice on facebook from someone that I had not heard from in probably over 10 years. Quite the surprise. I questioned my Spirit Guides as to "why the communication". The answer was "one of many from the past". Considering my soulmate is supposed to contact me and he is "from the past", I thought this was interesting. Not long after, I got an emails from a friend I hadn't heard of in a very long time. A month or two later, another friend from the past and just today...another! They weren't kidding. I was thinking to myself how what they told me was manifesting and my Guide interrupted my thoughts with "in the order they left". After thinking about what they said, I realized that they were right (surprise, surprise). These people from the past were coming back into my life in the order that they left. It is very possible that the next person to contact me would be my soulmate - based on my analytical skills. I will let you know when it happens.

Reminders!

I so like to be connected to Spirit. Whenever I am busy or preoccupied, they help me out. For example, when I am working and my mind is all over the place and I forget what I was going to do next, they remind me! Like this morning when I decided I would send out a payment to one of our Contract Readers and got distracted and updated my Reading Queue. After doing that, I decided to start doing my readings and I heard my Spirit Guide say, "You wanted to pay someone". I thought, "that's right, thanks" and then I sent the payment. They are constantly helping me out like that. I like being able to recognize when my Guides are speaking to me.

Help with Coping

The other day I was really upset. The day before I had visited my mother who has Alzheimers and who recently came back from the hospital I woke up in tears. Seeing the change is so sad. I needed enlightenment so I said a prayer and asked God for someone to come through and discuss this with me. I went into my meditative state and immediately someone was there. They shared with me some important information that helped me to understand why what was happening was happening and some other tidbits of information to help me cope. I can't remember the number of times that someone from Spirit has come through to help cope with life experiences. This alone is worth all of the lessons and events that happen as you walk this path. Develop your own abilities and you can have that same support.